Introduction

my past and how i came to be here

A few months ago, September 2009, i responded to an ad placed by Mistress Rouge who was, at the time, seeking a domestic cleaner to put a few hours a week servitude at Her dungeon house aka Her Lair aka The Rouge Retreat. Over the past few years i have served several Mistresses in a similar capacity and i was in a position to supplement my CV with a list of good referees who i knew i could rely on to verify my claims of being capable of useful service to Ma'am. After an initial phone conversation with Ma'am, it was soon clear my flexibilty as to when i could attend, allowed U/us to shedule 2 evenings of service per week for a trial period to see how things worked out. my duties were to include cleaning, vacuuming, washing up, polishing etc so that all the rooms were clean, tidy and presentable. Other tasks include the cleaning and maintainance of the dungeon furniture, rubber/latex and leather garments. Whatever Ma'am said, was to be done.
The trial period went very well. As i mentioned, i'm not a novice and from my initial first meeting with Ma'am, i felt comfortable and had no trouble with coping with all that was instructed of me. i found Ma'am to be both warm and friendly and at the same time, also wonderfully assertive, confident, competent, a good communicator and a good listener. Even before i met Her, i had done a lot of reading/research on Ma'am - read all Her postings on the various forums, downloaded videos from Her members site etc but She knew little of me. Although i could happily do the strictly domestic servitude and nothing else thing for a Lady, there are many more strings to my bow than simply the ability to clean a bathroom and push a vac around a room. Ma'am encouraged me to write a series of emails to Her so that She could see inside to what really makes me tick. Slaves aren't born, nor do they come off a production line pre-programmed - we all evolve differently, common themes maybe but every individual has a different makeup, a different set of triggers. Each one of us, a unique mix. A lot of people tend to class male submissives as either service orientated or pain sluts. Things are never quite so simple. i really couldn't put myself into a category. i have always had a passion for having my bottom warmed, ever since adolescence. Over the years that passion burnt and gnawed away until, at the age of 23, i hopped on a train to London and paid my first visit to a Pro-Domme. Over the next 15 years, i paid several Mistress's a visit - each session becoming more adventurous and intense. It turned out that i was capable of taking quite a sound thrashing. Moreover, i was also developing a liking for being told what to do, and enjoyed verbal domination and humiliation, being subjected to a strict and uncompromising attitude. In the mid 90's i aquired my first home PC and got online to the wonderful world of the internet. i came across such wonderful and informative sites such as Elise Sutton's Femdom site, The Disciplinary Wives Club, DOMestic, the awesome Mrs Birch from Down Under and several others. These sites introduced me to such concepts as enforced chastity, sissyfication, strict domestic servitude etc, A whole new world of thoughts and ideas had opened up and when my long term vanilla relationship ended in 1998, i seized upon the chance to get out there, explore and look for this lifestyle where Women rule, are there to be obeyed, adored and worshipped and know how to handle people like me. And for the last 11 years, i've had a lot of fun, enjoyment and happiness on my adventures and, as luck would have it, i'm now the collared slave to a wonderful, strict Mistress who, i'm certain, WILL get the best out of me and make me a slave to be proud of.
As well as being a collared slave to Mistress Rouge, i also have a mostly vanilla, live-in relationship with my partner of 6 years, whom i shall refer to throughout as "Partner S". Partner S is familiar with the BDSM lifestyle (i actually met Her through the BDSM scene) but Her interest has waned considerably over the years and after many "soul talks" She agreed to let me seek a Mistress to serve outside of our own relationship. Also, i had to agree to be responsible for all the household chores here at home - except the cooking thankfully - and that She had an open line of communication with my Mistress and would be free and able to report any instances of insubordination or ill behaviour. Quite a nice little arrangement. Partner S will occasionally discipline me Herself but more often than not, will leave it to Mistress Rouge to deal with me. Partner S is also minded that She does not require me to serve Her sexually and is very much in favour of a strict enforced chastity regime for me. Mistress Rouge is a self-confessed Bitch when it comes to chastity play and as a consequence, i now find myself on day 88 of continuous 24/7 enforced denial. The device i use is a CB6000S - the S signifies a shortened tube, barely enough room to accomodate my flaccid cock, let alone allow anything approaching an arousal. Not for the want of trying though - chastity can fuel the most intense longings and thoughts within the mind.
So here am i - effectively serving 2 Ladies, and subjected to a disciplinary regime that is set to grow evermore intense as 2010 progresses. This blog will detail that regime as we progress through the coming months. The regime is still evolving and Mistress Rouge has some very creative ideas to intensify Her contol over me in the weeks and months ahead. Hopefully the journal will be supplemented by pics, maybe the occasional video clip and of course Ma'ams own comments and input. i plan to update the journal a couple of times a week and A/all are welcome to comment.