Up and coming... but not cumming!

Chastity day 89 - oh the frustration, you would not believe! There is so much going on in my mind again today. First and foremost is the thought of seeing Ma'am for the first time this year this coming Wednesday. What a prospect - i was drooling at Her pic earlier showing off Her new gorgeous bob hairstyle. And i have the lovely, sensual task of trimming Her fringe But aside from that i 'm also going to receive my first thrashing of the year. Not that i have done anything to displease Her to merit 100 full force strokes from Her sjambok (no warmup!). But Ma'am has a lot of pentup Sadism to release and one of my roles as Her personal slave is to provide a receptive subject and target for Her sadistic pleasure. Ma'am would also say it is for my discipline of course, for my own good and She would be right. W/we have discussed discipline on many levels over the last few months and W/we both agree that a varied, continuous and intense regime is best and would serve both O/our needs well. As well as my appointment with Her sjambok, i'm also to receive 30 excruciatingly painful strokes of Her tawse across the palms of my hands. All this garnished with a ginger figging - something which i am absolutely dreading. Partner S once gave me a figging to make a 30 minute cornertime punishment more punitive - within a minute or two i was pleading my safeword as the burning sensation breached my usual stoic defences. Thankfully it was plucked out there and then. One thing is certain - there will be no such softness shown when Ma'am administers this cruel form of discipline. The ginger will be left inserted to run its full course. i would advise Her to keep a gag handy - things may get rather noisy! Come the day - and it won't be long now - i think the sh*t will have been outed in the hours before my visit just thinking about it!

i will be taking my report book along on wednesday for Ma'ams inspection and input. The report book is the medium Ma'am and Partner S use to communicate. Partner S will provide a list of possible dates for a planned real life meeting with Ma'am so to get to know one and other real life. W/we plan a nice meal out together and there will be ample opportunity for Ma'am to hear firsthand about my occasional nortiness at home! i fear there will be a lot of new rules and standing orders to be adhered to as a result of those chats i have to admit, i am not the perfect sub here at home and there are things that need working on. i learn best when i'm taught the hard way and there are plenty of things that need ironing out and Ma'am is my perfect tutor. And speaking of ironing.. A new duty for 2010 will be the introduction of ironing Ma'ams blouses. i have virtually no experience of ironing except watching another Woman do it. How long does a blouse take to iron? About 2 hours with this inexperienced slave. There will be some tuition needed here i have no doubt! What next, Partner S's bed sheets eeekkk!!!